Hi League of legends community!
I want to know your thoughts. I've been playing League of legends since 2013 and I've spent so much time on this and have 300 skins more or less. What frustrating is I've reached my end of line because I got permabanned. I'm glad their system is really harsh now that means people should be more afraid of being toxic and troll less in the long-lasting process. I've been through much in life recently that's why I've been emotional (That's no %%%%ing excuse I know it's my own fault, it's life). So I got a point where I received 2 week ban. I had this discussion with a riot staff about ban system. I promised to reform and ignore everyone and just focus my game.
:What got me to this point?:
I was diamond 3 seasons ago and got placed in silver because unlucky games. But I had a lot of time so I played more than 15 games each day after I got out of 2 week ban. It took me a month to reach to Plat 4 but I was hard stuck there. It did frustrate me a lot that more that one person is willing to lose just to piss other people off. Up until now I did so well with my behavior and even if i lost i just played another one and tried my best to be positive. But then this game hit me. After so many games keep losing because of the same reason. Someone whos so toxic and it affects me.
I was maining jungle and I use chat for communication because pings arent always enough. We had this fiora top, who wouldn't stop pushing but kept flamin me because I didn't ganked. He told me if i pinged much more he would go afk. So I used chat and asked him to not push and i'll be there right away! He wasn't the only one everyone pushed, which made ganking quite difficult. Instead I went for dragons, cause another way to be useful when you can't gank. I ended up getting 2 infernal drakes, which should help this fiora a bit. He started a fight top lane while was coming toplane. Unfortunate he died and blamed me for it. I had a small arguement with him because he would rather having me ganking a pushing lane than taking a drake. See, this is where I start to be a little negative about this. Mid was doing fine bot did so. We were basically doing fine until Fiora started to flame me and refused to teamwork. He kept dying and blamed me. It was wrong by me to get affect by this. But I used chat to kinda discuss what we shouldn't do and why our teammwork is failing. After Fiora stopped playing the team slowly falls appart. Adc was alone because Leona keeps going into enemy jungle, not to ward but just to die there. And she ended up deciding to engage a 1v5. This enemy soraka was playing really well she was extremely to keep her distance from danger and still be able to heal. I asked team to focus soraka cause shes the main reason why we lose most teamfights. But because we don't have a propper team (fiora trolling top, Adc alone because support has to walk around alone in enemy jungle). People would just focus random things and they would blame me for not doing enough.
I tried my best. It hurts to see that I'm bascially joining team toxic for those who gets perma banned. I asked riot staff some said i was being toxic others says I'm not toxic but I'm negative and lesser negative behavior shouldn't be punishable.
I'm just saying. How can anyone avoid being a bit negative when you're losing because one teammate refuse to play because he coulnd't get a gank top because he refused to listen to what the jungler requests him to do. I'm also a human being of course I get frustrated when I love this game so much but people don't take the game serious as I do and people are willing to lose on purpose and waste their time just by pissing other people off.
I know I 2 week suspension is a total warning. But what you guys don't think about is how many games I play a day. If I after my 2 week ban stopped playing for a half year it would have been a different story or just played one or 2. But because I played 10-20 games a day It was more likely I would get games like this. And get easily punished again.
Riot staff told me:
"To be perfectly clear, I must point out that while being toxic includes racism, homophobia. wishing harm on others, etc, it also means: spamming, whining, sarcastic congratulations or sarcasm in general, calling for reports and harassment."
I was being sarcastic but... If people in a normal wanted to joke with each other by saying something sarcastic isn't allowed? I did not one time harass anyone. If some of my calls are considered as "spam" I really don't know anymore. It might look like spam without a timer. But please don't read it and think I wrote all these message all at once. It was overtime during the game(People tend to forget that).
Sorry for this huge message but thanks for your time reading. I just need more advice. I tried really hard to reform but got triggered by this game, which ruined my whole league of legends journey. I don't expect that there's any way to get my perma ban lifted but I just feel its unfair.
Do you think this is permaban worthy? Don't vote yes without telling me why. Don't push me away from this community.
Here is the chat log and sorry for my english.
Vívien: i was brushing my teeth
Vívien: learn to dodge (jk)
Vívien: jax is at my red
Vívien: i think
Vívien: let him push
Vívien: galio do u need blue
Vívien: jax bot side
Vívien: got lvl 6 soon
Vívien: lemme get red
Vívien: i cant gank mid
Vívien: hes too far behind
Vívien: tilting a lot
Vívien: u should
Vívien: let him push
Vívien: when he keeps a distance like that
Vívien: go for raka
Vívien: not able to gank
Vívien: one place
Vívien: cause no communication
Vívien: this leona
Vívien: i dont know why
Vívien: leona would 1v1
Vívien: i pinged her back and she wantd t o go deeper
Vívien: 2 what
Vívien: we got 2 infernals
Vívien: thanks to me
Vívien: their jax is bad
Vívien: and so is our teamwork
Vívien: people think
Vívien: wjen we are behind they can afford more mistakes
Vívien: report fiora
Vívien: hes inting
Vívien: how can i gank
Vívien: when u always push
Vívien: if i ganked ur lane
Vívien: i wouldnt get 2 infernal drake alone
Vívien: bot didnt help
Vívien: "we cant affrod more mistaeks"
Vívien: *team does more mistakes than ever"
Vívien: ure legit asking me to playu?
Vívien: cause u ALL PUSH
Vívien: URE FLAMING ME
Vívien: FOR NOT GANKIJNG
Vívien: u would rather they got drake
Vívien: than get a gank
Vívien: i gankd u
Vívien: u just died
Vívien: so i didntr notice
Vívien: ure all muted
Vívien: its funnyt
Vívien: people dont know that raka can heal